Sunday, October 3, 2010 ; 12:24 PM♥
i hate lies! i don't deserve all those lies.
This is hurt, deep hurt inside my heart.
please don't torture me anymore,
my heart being sooooo numb,
i don't know when i should smile, when i should cry.
it's really numb... i fail to describe how hurt of my heart,
cause too many wounds inside.
The knife keep stabbing it while the wounds not yet recover.
It's bleed more than before.
How much courage i need to let it recover?
I force myself to believe all those holy craps,
force myself to believe that is not lies,
force myself to pretend nothing,
force myself to accept i had been ignoring and kicking out,
force myself to accept that i'm worthiness, cause i'm a toy.
this is very much i can do it.
i dunno why i'm still wanna holding it,
i'm waiting the person to be honest to me,
i'm tired of keep fighting with both of you and myself,
no matter how, i still lose.
until... i losing my dignity.
this showed that... i'm so useless, i'm a LOSER.
this is the lesson of don't ever fight with both of you, especially don't fight with the girl, since i don't have the ability to fight.
it will be ended up, i get more hurt, i totally losing the dignity.
somehow, i have no right to fight, have no right to get angry,
cause i'm nothing, i'm only a stranger.
conclusion:
i'm the bitch and also the slut!
