Saturday, September 25, 2010 ; 1:34 PM♥
I learned from the past, i learn to be more mature, i learn to be better. But no one will appreciate it at all. I'm always questioning myself, what is the problem? am i not perfect? am i not qualify being treasure by someone? No matter how much i had done, people won't realise it, they won't see it.
I had been torturing within these few month. I was messing up myself. There is another downturn in my life. How much I wish time could turn back again, I wished time can turn back to the last year, I rather give up the happiest and memorable moments of past a year, I rather still being alone and down as before. If there is nothing happened, i never know deep inside my heart had hurt so deeply. This is ain't easy to solve.
Thinking back of what i had done for someone, this is what i actually will not do for anyone in the past. My concerns to someone are too much. I'm being so stupid, hmmm... I should say I'm such a fool, the world's stupidest fool. Indeed, I have no right to angry, people treated me as friend, claimed that we r friends, but why the things he did just more than a friend? He don't realise it or he refuse to realise it?
I know that the facts was unchangeable, i really hope he can be fair to me. Stands as my side and think of it, what if there is one day, the same matters happen on him, how he feel? I prayed everyday I can be better, pray hard of there is someone which really can treasure me well.
I had enough of being hurt, this is torturing and i can't stand for it anymore cause I'm not born to be hurt and I'm not strong as well. And now, i have to pretend nothing happen, keep smiling and being so called "happy", i'm seriously very upsetting. I just wanna be myself, i feel awkful of hiding my feelings... but i forced to do it. this is how sad am i.
1 Comments:
Babe... cheer up...
I understand how sad you are because of him... Its been too long... U need to get urself up and forget him. No one said its gonna be easy, we all know its damn damn hard; but it is not impossible. I would say, it's definitely NOT impossible. Until the day u give him up, u won't be able to sense the right person in your life. That right person will nv be able to reach u unless u open ur heart to someone else.
Sometimes people meet the wrong ones so that they'll know who is the right one when they finally meet one. Trust me, u deserve someone better & you will find someone who loves and treasure you for who u are... someone who is worthy of your love and sacrifice.
Because we all have someone :)
